I Miss My Friend

This song has been much on my mind today. When I found it combined with one of my favorite television series all rolled up in one, I just had to add it.

Regret

I've always lived my life without regret. Yet now, I find myself regretting so many things I didn't say and do. I wonder if it was something I said or did to make my beloved scurry for cover. Perhaps he thought I didn't love him any more.

I once had a dream that my beloved and I had broken up. Another man loved me and asked me to be his wife. I finally agreed to marry him, because he loved me. The final part of that dream, right before I woke up, was me standing on a hill, looking back with a ring on my finger and a deep sense of sadness and loss. The dream brought tears to my eyes.

That dream made me realize that I should never take love for granted. It is something too precious that, once lost, could never be found again.

I've lived 50 plus years. I've loved before, but I never loved like this. I never felt such a connection/closeness with any other man. I wonder if I will ever find it again.

Which is why I sit here filled with regret ... for things left unsaid and things that I wanted to do, but didn't. My basic shyness did me in and I will always regret the things I didn't say and do.