Friday, August 31, 2007

Memories by Nobody

I move around the room until a glance stops me in my tracks.
My breath catches and warmth slowly begins to infuse my chest.
My eyes soften while my heart begins to beat faster ... remembering.
Reaching out, my hand caresses the contour of your beloved face,
as my eyes begin to sparkle and a smile blossoms on my lips.


Memories, too many to count, race across the movie of my mind ...
memories of bursts of laughter, gentle kisses and warm cuddles.
In the my mind's movie, you once again dance in the aisle of the store,
laugh as you wrestle with the dog, and bend down as I kiss your ear,
whispering words of love as your big body shivers under my hands.


A deep sigh escapes ... containing both my happiness and longing.
My heart aches to make more of those wonderful memories with you,
to fill my mind with more of those times of joy and intimate moments.
Which is why I stop, to remember and cherish those memories ...
of humor, conversation, and the joy you once brought into my life.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Coming Home by Nobody

I wrote this a while back and just came across it in my folder.

Your voice, like honey, flows across the wires,
and my heart melts like butter on a hot griddle.
Your silver tongue weaves words into my very soul,
until you have woven them into the fabric of my life.
My life does not feel complete without you in it.

Days go by without the sound of your silken voice,
and, while I wait, I become wilted and start to wither,
until once again the silken flood of your words lift me.
Like a parched flower welcomes a summer rain,
your voice lifts my heart and blossoms in my soul.

Do you know what power your words had over me?
Do you know the potpourri of emotions they brought me ...
happiness, sometimes sorrow, but, most of all, joy.
The sound of your deep voice left me with longing ...
I ached to feel of your gentle arms surrounding me.

My body cries out to feel complete once again.
My nerve endings simmer with pools of liquid fire.
I yearn to feel the beat of your heart holding mine,
to feel your mustached, soft and gentle lips on my own,
and again find myself home in the circle of your arms.

Friday, August 24, 2007

I never knew regret ... by Nobody

I never knew regret until you.
So many words left unspoken,
even more deeds left undone.
All that is left is this pain unbroken.

The greenish glow surrounds me, my eyes "begin to leak".
Only one thing can remove the pain, bring me the peace I seek.

I can search the whole world over
and never find another you ...
a man to fill my heart with joy,
and make me thoughtful too.

Friends urge me to forget you, to find someone new,
But they don't know what I know, there'll never be another you.

No other man's arms will feel so right.
No other man's voice can warm the coldest night.
No other man will call filled with sadness,
but leave me with filled with gladness.

I'll never find another man who challenges me, each and every day.
There are no other hands so soft and gentle which excite me in every way.

There will never be another man,
whose pain I will sense miles away.
No other will share the connection,
That we shared every single day.

There are not another pair of eyes in this world, so piercingly green;
Nor another whose humor so closely matches mine; or with a wit so keen.

I never knew regret until you.
So many words left unspoken,
even more deeds left undone,
All that is left is this pain unbroken.

The Dream

Have you ever had a dream over and over again? Did you ever wonder if it was prophetic ... wonder if you were looking into your future?

I've had the same dream at least four times over the past year. So many times that I can see it clearly, even now. It is so vivid that I've even confided my dream to a friend after I had it for the second time. I reminded her of the dream recently.

In the dream, I'm standing on a hill. A man is kneeling at my feet, looking up at me with adoring eyes. He takes my hand and asks me to marry him. There is so much love and hope in his face that it hurts my heart.

I look down at him with dead eyes. There is no smile, just a deep soul-searing sadness and look of anguish on my face. Tears fill my eyes.

The dream then jumps to the end. I'm standing on the same a hilltop ... alone. Wind is blowing my hair. In front of me is a dark and stormy sky. Yet, sunlight warms my back. As I reach up to pull the hair out of my eyes, there is a glint of a wedding ring. My head turns and my face is full of sadness and longing ... longing for the man that I love with all my heart. I turn and look back into the sunshine.

Then I wake up with tears in my eyes.

I told my friend about this dream once. I thought it was about how my life would be without my beloved in it. She had a different view. She believes the sunshine (and love) is in my future ... that when I turned toward the sunshine, it was to a better life ... only time will tell.